Healthy Living: Pollen Germination & Life

 I have not been blogging for nearly a month. :(
And this is due to very very good reason. Life, school, busy.

But today, I want to carve a special time for myself in this crazy world. Thank you for coming to my blog and reading it. :) I hope your day has gone well.

For the past few weeks, I have been collecting pollen. Strange. But it is for my cell biology lab. I am collecting pollen and designing my own expirement. This flower is a lily. (I think)
During this process of doing the lab, I have been visiting different garden differently. It also give me a different perspective on life.

I mean, I am so busy with what is going in my own world that I fail to notice that there is a bigger world out there. I mean, in this flower perspective, the world is a really different place. I guess, this whole lab and learning about plant really make me appreciate about the world around me.

I don't know what to say to you now about my life. When people ask me, I tell them I'm busy. I tell them I have school and bunch of other academic related things to do. I feel empty in this process. I feel like I don't have anything to share.

It is strange the stage that I am in right now. I can't really describe it. I feel like I'm in this very big storm. Things are flying around everywhere, and I'm in this right in the eye of the storm. And strangely, it's so chaotic that it feels calm. You are probably thinking I'm crazy. But, I'm not crazy. I might get less than 6 hours of sleep everday, but I swear I'm not crazy.. about this.

I mean things seems so crazy that for a second, you feel calm. And for some strange reason, I feel like only through this calmness can I really survive this craziness. Do you know what I mean? Or am I really losing sleep too much sleep?

For one thing, I was lost. I did felt overwhelm. But after my UC Davis trip, one of my old friend helped me plan out my schedule and be more active. I mean, I use to sit and stress about thing. Now, I'm just tired doing things. I'm doing thing so that I don't get stress, but I get tired. Lol, okay. I think I'm crazy..


But look at that flower. There are so much going on in this world and this flower is just growing. It's just doing it's things. This pollen germinate very well. LOL I'm going crazy. good night!

Healthy Living: Hot tube

Week 1 has ended for me. I got bunch of work. But you know, I feel awefully lucky being able to go home tonight and take a nice hot shower on a cold windy day. Bless the hot water in my bathtumb tonight. You should try it! :)

Healthy Living: Pushing

I'm not even sure if I should be typing this right now.
But school has started. And, I'm back into session.

I'm trying really hard to figure out what to do. Because, I feel a little disorientated with the amount of work I'm handling. It seems that there is a lot to be done but I haven't really figured out how to do these stuff.

I'm balancing 2 science lab, 1 upper division bio class, 1 elective class.  On top of that, I have to finished the MCAT by Dec. 2013. I'm not sure anymore.. as in, I'm not sure of how to make it all work. I really hope I figure out something soon.. 

But, there are still many things I'm grateful for. Because, I don't know. I feel things can always been really bad. But so far, all the elements seems to be in my life right now.

You know, sometime, I really don't know anymore. I hold myself sometime and tell myself everything is going to be okay.