Healthy Living: So.. Tell me everything

So, for the past two days, I sat down and wrote out my thoughts and reflection about all the things I have done for the last 4 years. There was a lot of thoughts to go through, a lot of feeling and emotion that need to be unfolded and put into papers. So, I been crafting a drafts of all my thoughts and feeling. There was this one volunteer program that I have been affiliated for a year and I wanted to put it as a personal statement because it has been an integral part of my life for the the last year. At first, I could not say anything about it. I don't know what how to unlock these feeling and thoughts, but eventually, thought started to pour out and slowly but carefully I typed down my experience. Its funny how it came out, the ideas came out like a flow of water. I am glad I got something on papers.

So, I basically spent the last few hours typing out a story that I am trying to build as I connect all the pieces together and hopefully figure out my overarching theme.

Healthy Living: Where to begin?

Tonight, I am writing stories. A lot of stories. Basically, I am recounting everything from the beginning of time. Just kidding... but it really feel a lot like it. I am basically writing about all the significant expeirence that has happened to me in college. Of course, its not that dramatic, but I am writing about my activities in college and what it meant for me. I almost feel like I am telling a bunch of stories.. like a what I am doing is trying to craft each and every pearl and somehow connect them into a string of beads. Each event is different but each all significant. I have no idea how this is going to work. I feel like I have a bunch of stuff to figure out...

And they all want this on the application. Oh boy, I have no idea how this going to work.

Healthy Living: Computer ON!

So, last week,  I was involved in this summer program coaching little kids. It was really fun.
In the process of doing a powerpoint, I download a bunch of virus. I don't know what happen, it got into my computer and kinda damage my browser and it was pretty bad.

But, tonight, I download an antivirus software. And also, I learned to restart all of my browser stuff. Now, I am very sleepy. I wanted to write a lot more but the installation and antivirus stuff took so long. But  I will hopefully write tomorrow.

Healthy Living: The Night

So, I took the MCAT today. And I submitted it. Its been a long and hard struggle. From the very beginning and up till today, It has been one rocky rocky ride. I don't know what will happen now. But I know that I walked into that test scared and terrified. So, I prayed. I prayed that I would have the courage to step into my fear, the strength to continue this fight and a calm and clear mind to complete the task at hand.

And so, I went into to the test knowning that I have done all I can. I have exhaust the material that is offered to me at this time and used up all the time I have left to study. I have put in time studying the content, and spent time in developing the skill and strategy to complete the test. And today, I took the test knowing I really did the best I can to best of my abilities. And, when I finished, I cried. I don't know, it was an extremely emotional process just finishing the exam. I just pray I have a good enough score to get into medical school.

But after the long hiatus, I am back.

I don't know if I was really living in the last couple of months. I know down to the last 2 months, it felt very difficult to breath  and keep going. I kept having mental breakdown every few days. It was knew I cried a lot and did a lot of thinking. It made me question about my life and my decision and my goals. It made me realized more about the people around me and understand their plight. But I will delve into those talks later.

But tonight, I just want to be glad that I am finally back to this blog. I felt protected all throughout my test today. I not sure if I want to run you through the complete detai of how the test went. But I want to let you know I did the best I could.

As for now, What now... Well...I am staring a summer job this monday! I get to play and teach kids and get them excited about science! :)

Oh, And i'm going to hit the gym, clean my room, get a NEW DIGITIAL UPDATE UP.. and hm.. go watch that one movie on threater. Then, make that video about rivers protection.

And... with  all hope and prayers, I hope I may have the priviledge to apply to medical school this coming cycle.