Healthy Living: Week 11- Finding oneself.

I think this is what I lacked. I really have forgotten about myself. I forgot how to restore my mana/chakra. Now, I'm just a fat potato. But, this weekend, I did spend 4 hours doing something that I use to do. (1) Photo editing.

It was nice because I finally able to edit some old pictures I have taken over the summer. Its one thing taking pictures, its another thing going through it and listening to nice old song. And then, being able to select and edited.

I didn't do too much editing but it was a fun break. I hope this coping strategy works. Next week, I'm going to try something different.

Btw, above is some photo I edited. I really enjoy taking them, and also looking back at them. I realized one thing, I should stop eating past 12 am. I already upload these picture on tumblr, but I really need to update my digital update website.

Healthy Living: Wk 10: And so it continues

I haven't written in a couple of weeks because of my new studying schedule. It makes it difficult for me to write since I come home late and then I get tired and I have to sleep.

But with all that said, I can't say more that there is a lot that has happened and there is a lot that I would like to talk about in my life. But time constrant. And honestly, nothing has really change.

I still feel trap in a situation where I like a girl who does not like me back. She is still hung up and in love with her ex. With all due respect, I'm going to make sure, the next tine I sit, I'm going to sit in an opposite side of the her ex, so this way, i don't have to deal with this bullshit anymore of having to see her stare in the opposite way.

I think for Renal, I will switch seat to the opposite side. But honestly, I don't wan to go out of my way to seating.

I kinda stop asking why is this girl in my life and why I am torture this way and have to deal with this situation. Like, I get it. They are both in love. Now, CAN I PLEASE EXIT THE STORY? Was there even a reason why I'm even here?? She so different from me in so many ways, and honestly, I'm ether sad over the situation, of piss off at her. And then i have to be nice to her in front of her.

I'm telling you. If this isn't life is punishing me, I don't see the reason for this. Is it necessary to give me this pain. I stop questioning life and why and why its like its.

I'm tired of fighting the current. I'm just going to confess. Lay out my cards and be honest. And just face the consequence. I'm kinda tired of playing this game. I played it twice with the 2 previous girl I love. And now, lets be real. Let's be honest. Let's confess. I don't know what to will come out of it. But, i'm tired of this emotional roller coaster. Let's clear the way, for a new year. Let end this year with honesty. I HOPE I GET MY SANITY BACK.