Corner wall: Weightloss - the dirt road

Weight loss

Today, I spoke one of my patients regarding weight loss and she brought up some interesting problems that I myself has encounter during my weight loss journey. Tonight is too late to dive into the details, but I have come to a conclusion based on our talk and my reflection. I don’t think wofht loss is a destination. It’s not a destination to need to get to, rather I think of it as a path, a road, a railway, a direction that one goes, but not necessarily a place that one comes too. It a dirt path that requires awareness, diligence, and commitment to be one. It has its rewards in small ways, in simple treasure like the feeling of tucking in your belt a little tighter, seeing your flat belly after a whole, noticing how good you look in your clothes or how comfortable you are in your dress pants. I just feel that I been thinking about weight loss in the wrong way, I’m slowly realizing that it is a journey that we either choose to be on or not. Simply put, either your on the Dirt trail or not. There isn’t an knvetween. You either watch what you eat and continue to do so as long as you live so that you can direct your weight or body in the direction that you want it to go, or you can simply choose to let it float wherever it wants. The choice is ours to choose the path or get off the path. There isn’t really a final destination, it’s simply a dirt road that we choose to get on day after day, and that is why people call it a lifestyle choice. A life style change. The treasures that it offers comes in subtle ways, and the reward might be a healthier l life. 

Didactic Wk 2: Change of Direction

After 3 months of rotation, I can safely say that there are some rotations I LOVE, and some, I do not enjoy. What should I say to update you about my life.

Nothing much, to be honest. I am on my 4th rotation, and it is an FM rotation in LA. Eventhough the hours are alright, the daily traffic commute is unbearable, and honestly, I do not enjoy outpatient medicine as much.

I do understand the lifestyle is much chiller and with correct managing, one can become very wealthy. However, I just don't really like it that much. I like working with a larger group of individuals. I like being walking around the hospital. I like meeting different patient and seeing them back to back. I like to see their conditions improve after their hospital stay. I like speaking to different specialists and see the immediate result of my lab test and scans that I order.

I don't want to deal with patient compliance. As much as I like seeing patient again months after months, I still perfer working with a larger staff. It keeps things new and refreshing. As much as I learn a lot from this FM rotation, I think maybe, I still enjoy the fast pace of inpatient setting.

Also, right now, I'm constantly overwhelmed. I feel like I am responsible for my schooling, my living situation, my next meal, my weight, my 4th year schedule, my VSAS, my upcoming residency application. So much to do and to think about. Honestly, I feel like I'm 1 disaster away from a complete meltdown. But I know I have my family, my loving cousins, my caring friends. I am forever grateful for the support of so many people in my life.

3rd year is no joke. I find it very difficult and challenging. I has pushed and pulled me in ways that I feel is good for my development, but it is also very exhausting and draining too.

I still like didactic week very much. It brings back old characters that I love and the moments we have with each other.