Merry Christmas :)

Hello everyone,
Sorry for my absense. I just got 3 of my wisdom tooth removed, and boy, that was a pain in itself. I didn't feel it when they did it. I was knocked unconsious. Now, I just want it to hurry the beeep up, so I can start eating again.

My appetites right now, I can EAT a whole Big Mac & a large size pizza. But nooo, I'm reduce to rice pourage & mash potatoe.. T___T NOTT FUNNY!!

Winter break is 3 weeks long. Now.. I have to sacrifice 2 of those week in doors. I can't even drive. BLAH!!!!

But hey, I got to admit, Christmas is here! :) That means, present under the tree!!
T___T Still, THE FOOOD. nooo!! :((( 

12/12/12

It's a little late, but I just want to emphasize something.
My birthday was on 12.12.12 this year! And I turned 21! :)
That's a lot of "1 & 2" haha x)

I wasn't able to post or write anything because I had to study for finals. I really did the best I can. I made tons and tons of mistakes this quarter, and I think I will take these lesson to heart for next quarter. But I really did learn my lesson this time!

I studied my best, and I did my best. I leave the rest to the divined.
And I am just thankful that I have lived 21 years of my life. I know people ususally use this day to go drinking, but I think I'm going to skip on that one.

I just am really glad I lived this far. I heard the news today in Conneticute, 20 childen and 6 adults were shot. It really a shocking news. My prayers goes out to their family tonight. It must be terrible. Imagine what their parents are thinking tonight? They tuck their kids into bed yesterday  night and drop them at school the next day. Who would to think that it would be the last time they would see their kids?

Who would have think?
I learned something very important this quarter. Sometime, life will hit you with things you never expect and it will break you down. Crumble your dream, destroy your love, do things that devaste you. And sometime, bad things happen to good people. There is no avoiding such circumstance or situation. It is simply fate. Your fate. My fate. Our fate.

But the important thing is that... You choose how you meet fate. You may not be able to change it, but you sure have the control over how you face it. For some, it's the end. (like those kids today, and their family).

It's sad when I analyze such things in the middle of the night. But it's important.
Now, look at my birthday. It's December 12, 2012. I didn't pick the day or the time I was born, it was given to me. And there is nothing I can do to change it. But what I can do is have control how I react to it. And how I meet up.

It might seem like we're just so little, and being unable to control the outcome of our life. But, our reaction and perspective can play a lot. Don't underestimate it. But to be honest, what do i Know? I'm just a 21 years old girl.

Btw, my finals are over. I can finally post and be active again!

Healthy Living: My year

It's been a long rough year. But 2012 is almost coming to an end.
Despite all the tears and difficulties I been through this year, I don't regret it one bit. The suffering has definitly made me a better person. I feel stronger, but it didn't come easy. I just want to thank everyone who has been helping and supporting me so far. You all been such wonderful, helpful, and supportive friends.

One of the major thing this year was just discovering myself a little more. Those were a very dark time for me. Sometime, I wonder if I would ever get through it. I can't see anything beyond the pain of being different. I didn't know why it have to be this way.

But you can see how different things are for me now. By knowing and accepting myself, I feel more stronger and confident in myself now. Those moments of hardship have brought me to a better place. I am glad that I found out that I like girl. And I love myself for accepting myself for better or worse. And I am proud of myself for remaining strong through the depression and confusion. It wasn't easy. But, if it wasn't for those time, I would not have been where I am today. Things aren't perfect now, but I am glad for what I have. I am thankful for everything that happen so far.

I hope that I will be strong enough to face all the events that will come in the following year. I hope I will be able to withstand future hardship. Dark times will come again, and it will be hard. But then again, I know, there will be stars waiting to help me through. I know I'm not alone and neither are you. :)

My Year 2012