Healthy Living: Stress

As the world comes crashing down, the earth beneath my feet are shaking, I still need to fight on. There's are a lot of things I still need to do.

Healthy Living: Innovation

I want to make some Innovation to my website.
Because of the start of the new year, there are some changes I want to bring forth. Time to innovate:

1. Photoshoot Pg: this is a new website that I have attached to think page. It is website dedicated to my collection of photoshoot over the year.


2. 2013 Weightlost pg: This year, I want to try something new. Instead of putting a NEW YEAR RESOLUTION, I think that stuff take too long. I work more effectively with short term goal then long term goal. So broke my year into academic quarters. I am going to have each quarter goals, and i hope I reach it.
--> this also allow me to have a more graps on the time and be able to change if i don't meet that goal by the end of the quarter. It's something more realistic and it put my dream closer in sight. I don't think any of those goal are unrealistic. It's 'do-able". But DEFINITLY NOT EASY.

Aladdin
*The reason why I choose this picture to be the cover of this post is that I find something in this picture. It shows that we are our own Aladdin. No matter what we achieved or don't achieved in life, we are the same person inside. We have our core our roots. And, no matter how hard we failed or fallen, we can always try our best to climb up the ladder again. We can all be that prince or princesses. We don't have a magic lamp, but what we do is that we have a will power. A dream. And I think that is something magical in itself already.

So, no matter where you are right now, there are still more improvement to be done. We will be that prince/princess one day. But, it's not going to be easier. Who we end up as, it is up to us to decide. And that decision is made through every single action that you make in your life. Be the prince/princess.

Healthy Living: Wanting a change

School started. And you know what that means. I have new classes, new professors, and faces new problems. But there is an upside to all of this. I meet new people and get to know more about my old friends.

What happen is that I recently have classes with this on girl. And I am INSPIRED AGAIN! Omg!
She has the perfect body, perfect hair, and she even have a higher grade than me. She have the perfect taste in fashion. Basically, this girl look good. And... then, I look at myself. I don't hate what I look like or who I am. But she seem so much prettier and better. Its not like I want to switch team and wished I was her. I love myself and there are struggles I have faced in the past year that have made me even prouder of who I am. But gosh, this girl is LIKE... PERFECT.

I think this calls for an IMPROVEMENT on my part. I need to step up my game. Really!!!
I need to start BEING serious with my healthy living lifestyle and NOT dance around the topic. I need to keep track of what I am eating and putting into my body. I need to drink more water and eat more fruits. Also, I need to get a haircut. And I need to start dressing better.
Oh, and most important, learn other methods into studying more effectively!

She is perfect. I wish I can post a picture of her, but I don't have one.. and that would be just a little creepy on my part. But meeting this girl has MOTIVATE ME to be better!! I need to step up my GAME.

And, I know I'll never exactly the same as her. But I hope I will be somewhere better than what I am today.

I NEED TO HIT THE GYM. :((
NO photoshoot this week. I have a lot of studying to do. And thank you for the wonderful support! :)

Healthy Living: Friends

Today, I hanged out with my friends.
And for some reason, I feel very odd. Very cold. I can't be myself with them. I cannot shared with them the people I loved. I felt that I was hiding something from them. And it's true, I was. I don't know. I just don't feel like myself around these "friends" of mine. I wasn't myself. I can't share my stories because some of them are religious. I don't know if we're that close anymore.

I kinda went out of proportion today. We played secret santa and I bought a pretty expensive gift. IT's because I wasn't sure if it was a $5 dollars or $10 dollar. Well, either way, I bought a pretty expensive gift. I bought a $10 camera. But my friend all thought I paid a lot. But, oh well. I thing I brag to many of my friend today and I felt really really bad. I feel guilty. Who was I to brag about these stuff. I was just lucky I was born in a loving family.

I learn my lesson today. From now on, when I hang out with my friends. I'll put up a cover. Only to those I really trust, I let it down, but everyone else. I'm going to put up a front and keep my secrets safe and close. I never ever want to hit up the same position ever again. I don't trust my friends. I can't be myself because I know some of them are unwilling to accept if they know. I need to learn how to keep my mouth shuts and my feeling inside. I can't risk it anymore.

In addition to all of this, I feel completely useless. I'm behind on my studies. I wake up late. I can barely keep myself from getting distracted. I'm not even prepared to take the MCAT. I feel like a failure 3rd year. In addition, I haven't got myself into a hosiptal position yet. How the heck am I ever going to make it into medical school? I'm starting the year off feeling like a failure student.

I want to do really well in school this quarter. I have never gotten a 4.0 before in college. I eeally would like to see what it's like. I start every quarter telling myself, this quarter will be the quarter. This will be it. But I always find myself somewhere within the quarter dreading my grades and bad midterm scores. I don't know what struggle this quarter holds, and I'm truely scare for what is to come. But I know, I'm going to try my best this quarter. I'm going to struggle and cry. I'm going to face a lot of scary things this year. It's part of growing up. I'm scared of 2013 and all the thing unknown that is about to happen this year. I only ask for my family to be safe. I pray for up above to send me guidance on the correct road to go, and I'll try my best to follow.


Year 2012. Thank you, you taught me well. You showed me how to love. You took me through the dark side. You threw me into a world and force me to meet people I would never associate with. You took down my prejudice and you destroy the life I use to know. But, you show me who I am. You show me that I'm bisexual which shook my world into a every pieces. But as you pull me away into a new world, you brought me closer to myself. And allow me to love myself more than I can ever loved. Thank you for teaching me.

Year 2013. I pray for guidance.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!


Winter Quarter 2013 begins! School week 0 have started!
I hope I can be a better person with this coming year. I hope everyone a fantastic year! :) May you find the strength to bring you one step closer to your goals in life!

My Winter Collection 2012