Am I an emotional person? Is it me or am I having a lot of emotions at night? I know, I'm very lucky to be in the position I am in. But, honestly, I am having a lot of feeling tonight.
I don't even know how to described it. For one thing, I feel grateful that I have been accepted to a respectable program. But then again, I can't help but feel guilty questioning if I really deserved it? And then, I wonder, what about my friends who are suffering with me, why do I have such a lucker than them like this? I don't know. I feel awful sometime. I can't even be contempt and happy with my own accomplishment. I feel inadequate sometime of who I am. I wonder, do I deserved such kindness?
I feel so much emotions. I don't even know how to described it and I feel that my world is changing. I am anticipating for the future, but at the same time, I don't want this phase of my life to pass. I have made friends. There are people who I really like and cherish. But I can't wait to start the next stage of my life, but then again, I can't help feeling sad of leaving my parents. I am stuck in between.
I feel odd and strange and the feeling amplified at night. What is this feeling I am going through. I feel uncertain because I do not know where my life will lead. I have uncertainty and tomorrow could be a blank slate for all I know. Maybe the late is really getting to me.
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