Healthy Living: Having it hard

Being sick suck. School suck, I'm not liking anything right now.
I cough. I'm sick, and tired. I don't feel well, and honestly, I missed home. I missed being pampered and taken care of when i'm sick. But out here, and ever since I been living alone, its been quite sucky.

I don't know, I never thought it could be this hard. Ever since I started grad school, the work load is insane. I was constantly pilled with stuff to learn and study, and I have not quite master how to study yet. So, i'm struggling with that, and in addition with the large amount of stuff I have to know and learned.

I feel behind, but I also feel defeated. I studied really hard, but then getting below average, and scarpping the line of passing. This is discouraging, and the sicnkess has not been kind.

I mean, I felt the flu full circle on this one. I don't enjoy living alone, taking care of myself, and handle school. I know I am complaining, and all and all, and it terrible. But it maybe its because, its 2 am, and i'm sick. and I just finished one of my class lectures.

Man, this is rough. But my parents reminded that there are worser thing out there in life. Ad that I still have it lucky because all I do is study, pass my class, and be good. So, I guess that is a blessing in itself.

I hoping to go to bed now, and hopefully, and just pray things will get better soon. I really need my strength for this up coming week.

Wk5: What works, What doesn't, and everything else is a mystery

To Study and How to Study:

So, I got my exams today. And I scored 2 standard deviation below my class average for anatomy. It stink and stuck like hell. I been studying day and night for the last few weeks and everything just fall into pieces. I am very and deeply troubled. I am actually scared if I will pass my class. But with that said, I think its time to reaccess what the hell is going on. I will actually present you a chart of my studying habits. I am frustrated, pissed, and dissapointed. But I realized that this is just the beginning. I didn't start out my freshman year and studying that same method toward my 4th year in undergrad.

I am fully aware of many many future dissapointment and failure and setback that will about to come with this journey. I know this is actually not the hardest days. There will be harder days that the future will bring.

So, lets me do some analysis and show you my result.

So, there is a lot of question marks in my studying style. From my findings, I realized that I missed several important thing. Some Core conception:

(1) Unable Recalling old lectures after 2-3 days
(2) No active "Testing" to review materials
(3) No Active Recall. No retrieving material without clues
(4) No Interval Revival: Did not access all the material until 2 days before exam, and left with a dozen of small little facts to remember.
** Some things can only brutely memorized. But if you can, understand the how & why. If you understand, you will remember 10x so much better.

These are something I really need to fix, or find some solution to.

Healthy Living: Wk 4 - grad school

I gave myself 7 min to write this.

Right now, I am a bit brain dead. I been doing stuff the whole day. This week has been like a race, a race to catch up with things. I constantly feel like I'm behind, but that is because I took my summer off. Well, now I'm paying for it by studying everyday, which isn't bad if your trying to develope your studying habit.

Today, something happened. It was the fact that I got too tired of studying that I couldn't study anymore. So, I took myself out, I drove several miles away from school to buy a tea drink & get dinner at a mall place. And it feel so different. The weather was cold, and you could feel that winter is coming, the fall is truely here. It was chilly, and so it was pretty nice. And life for that instance, slowed down. I felt I was moving at a slower pace. It's so different to feel 2 different things. One thing was the fast pace of the health world, and the other is the fairly normal of the regular world. I started to see boundaries. Of going into the bubble, and going out of the bubble. Its so different.

That was my breather. I felt relaxed and back to earth. It almost remind me of christmas there. The night lights were out, and it was a sunday night, so everything was farely beautiful. Driving home from the trip was really nice. I felt amazing and the fact that I went out. It was so fun to explore the new city that I lived in. The weather was chilly. I can feel the season changing. To this, we welcome fall. Fall is awfully romantic this year.