I'm going through hard time right now for grad school. But then again, when did I not go through a hard time? In this dark times, I realized something important. First, nobody is more dissapointed in me than myself. But nobody has been let down and hurt about my life and performance than myself. I have constantly let myself down, drop the ball, look like an idiot, and make every possible mistakes in the book as a student. But then again, nobody work for me more than myself. Nobody tried for me more than myself. It was my ass that get myself out of bed in the early morning, sleeping late, dealing with the stressed, and juggle a million pieces, and the ball come-- be expected to performance and do it well. Nobody go down in the dirt for me than myself. So as much I am not happy about my current situation, I realize that the self love, the love I have for myself, and the thing it has willing go for me, to hell and back. I am proud, And I happy. And with these broken pieces, unrealized future, and daunting path, I will not be alone.
*(This statement does not include my parents)
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