Initially, I was going to write on this Monday night. But things came up, I got tired and so I decided not to write. And Tuesday came, and I was surrounded with work, trying to catch on Board Studying that I missed.
And finally, Wednesday came. Its late: 12:45. I have class at 8AM tomorrow and I need to be awake for the session. What should I tell you tonight? What should report?
This week is called "Skull Week" at my school. hehe
We learn technique to treat the brain and the movement of the brain.
This week feels like a catch-up week. I finally came out of a flu. I'm still coughing but my strength is slowly coming back. I can feel a part of me coming back. I like it when I was sick. My world shrink and all I care about was my health and my grade. I didn't think about anything or anybody. Every little thing I did was an achievement. I was proud of myself for completing a lecture. I was proud of myself for getting myself out of bed in the morning. I was proud just to carry on. I took myself to the doctor, paid urgent care, drank my medicine and got myself in bed on time. I felt like a good kid, taking care of my health and nothing else.
As my health came back, my expectation for myself heighten. I feel restless if I didn't board study. I feel like there is a bunch of things I should be doing, or must be doing. I feel like I need to do something. Thoughts came back into my head. I can start feeling again and my emotions. "Issue pertaining to the heart"
But luckily, tonight, everything is under control. I have worked out a manageable schedule to wrapped up my board schedule. I made peace with the face that I'll hit 400 over due in my Questionbank. But this would allow me time to study, to find peace, and hopefully to study for class.
Goodnight, world. Tonight, everything is alright. I pray for guidance.
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