The Next Step - Thankful

 The Next Step 

It's been 1 1/2 years into my residency. I have passed my Level 3. My role and position in the residency has changed. I came to understand medicine a little more. I am came back here to soul search. 

I doubt I will be able to figure out everything tonight, but I wanted to get a bit of idea out there. There are a few things that is on my mind tonight: Career, females, and family. 

A few months ago, I was lucky enough to passed by boards. I took the last step exam in my education and now, I can continue my journey in residency. It is the most wonderful feeling. I am no longer bounded by the fear of not passing, of being held back, of the struggle juggling between work and study. I passed! It was the most amazing feeling. I am finally free. Free as I can be. It was a wonderful feeling. I did everything I could think of: visited my friends, watch my long awaited movies, took my parents to San Diego, download dating apps, talk to people I'm interested in, bought camera gears, invested in photography apps, and finished my 1000 miles challenged. It was SPLENDID! 

I didn't care about the future because I wanted to lived now. With the completion of level 3, I was no longer waiting. I was no longer "on hold". I life became unrestricted. Now, I am 1 month into this unrestricted life. A few things has changes and a few more needed to be addressed, so I am here to collect my thoughts. 

Let's talk about career. I did say I wanted to specialized. But into what? I am still unsure. The speciality I aiming for has its good and bad. I was initially thinking cardiology but now, I wondering about pulmonology. As I approached my 3rd year, its hard not to think about the future. What should I become? What do I wanted to become? I feel like a freshman in college again, because for once, I am unsure again. But regardless of which path, both need research, both need connection, and both need me to start now. To come to a proper resolution, I am planning to reach out my program faculty to gain some guidance to begin building my resume. I am sure the answer will come to me. I know I will find it as I begin to build my resume. 

Let's about love. Lol. I told my family and friends, time and time again, that I will start dating. I was initially going to start after I matched. But that got delayed, since I needed to study for my boards. And finally, as of November 2021, I began my dating journey. Medicine is so restricting sometime. I had the option to select between men or women. I went to women on my dating app. It was a personal choice. It was a choice I felt most true to what I wanted. At the end of the day, I wanted to be true to myself. So, women it was. 

But then, finding a girlfriend is harder than I thought. Lol. I had to learned how to make a dating profile. I learned to answer dating prompts. I learned to speak to people. I learned I had to be prompt to replying to message. I learned to NOT ghost people. I actually have not went on a physical date with anyone yet. My rough schedule is picking back up, so I am limited. And I need to learn not to fall for anyone too quickly. lol. This is not easy, this dating stuff. There is a learning curve. But, I am glad I am living it. I am thankful for the people I have met and those who had liked me back. 

I guess, at the end of the day, this post was made to be thankful. To be thankful that I have made it here this year. I managed to be healthy, kept my job, and talked to people I am interested in. My parents are also well. This year has been very good to me and my family, so I can't be more thankful. 

Lastly, above are all the pictures I took while I visited a recent temple. I tried not to post anymore self pictures on here.