So, a lot of people has given me great advice during this stressful time. And, I really appreciate all of it. :) It was very helpful.
Going through this process, I realized how weak I am. I mean, when my life get a bit turbulent, I start to break down, freak out, and lose hope. I would cry more often and stay weak. I am not as brave or as strong as I think I am. I am really quite weak emotionally and maybe physically. And going through this experience as really taught me this lession. I need to learn to be stronger.
However, this experience has also taught me of how lucky I am. I have great people who care about me. They give me wise advices and it really help me get through it day by day.
This coming fall, 4-5 of my high school buddies will enter professional schools. Some will be dentist, pharmacist, and even optometrist. And I am very proud of them. I am very happy for them. But something in me feels really sad. I feel like I am almost left behind. My buddies who been with me for nearly 8 years of high school + college are now going to the next level and making their dream come true. But, I am here. Stuck. With no where to go. I almost feel like I am doing something wrong, or even if I have failed myself.
But this is untrue. Or this is a wrong way of thinking. My dad told me something really wised today.
My dad said to me that I should think of this journey as planting a seed. In the last 8 years, my friend are on the same path as me. But as we got to college, each of us are now choosing a different path of life, a different type of seed. Each seed germinate differently.
And in this analogy, my friends are choosing career that required a different path and require a different time span. Sure, it will be faster for them. But that doesn't make my seed any bad. I choose my seed, my path in life. And my seed is a bit slower in term of germinating, but when the time comes, it will grow.
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