Healthy Living: Meeting people

I met some amazing people today. They are only 14, but they are going through something similar to me. We are together in the same journey. In a way, we are just trying to find, love, and accept ourselves in this world that does not yet fully understand. I don’t know. They make me feel less alone in this world.

-Believed it or not, these were the 2 post that these kids made on their tumblr. When I saw this, it really really made my night.

Healthy Living: A part of something

It's late at night again. And I am writing to you this.
I should be in bed. I have been grumpy the past 2 days because I been sleeping at 3AM and waking up at 8AM. I can't handle this anymore. That's why I needed to head to bed earlier tonight.

But I wanted to write before sleeping.
I want to tell you about what has happen in these past few days.
I recently made a new tumblr account and found this online anime community! I met interesting people from all around the world. I liked this community a lot because they share the same interest as me. We watch the same shows, have similar favorite characters, and also we read the same manga. I found a group of people I finally have something in common beside just school and academic. Its relaxing and fun.

I am slowly making friends. These people are a little different from my normal facebook friends. I don't know, but something about them make me included. In a way, it feels different. I know this sound weird, but in a way, I am looking for myself through them. I am still trying to learn more about myself.

I don't know how to describe it. I need someone to show me that its is alright and it is okay to be who I am. And it is a warm feeling to know that I am not alone in this process. There are a lot of people out there in this world going through the same thing as me... because self understanding is a lifetime process.

To think, this reminds me of Jewlz's catch phrase: "Searching ...for Jewlz".

Maybe the night is getting to me and I stop making sense.

MCAT: Progress Update #2: 8/09/14-8/15/14

Update on my MCAT studies. This is kinda late but last week been quite bumpy. I manage to get a few things done though. I don't count Monday-Sunday. This is because this make me slack off and try to make up for everything on Saturday & Sunday. So, I switch my schedule where Saturday is the start of my schedule and Friday is the last day of the week. This way, Saturday and Sunday seems like a fresh start and Monday seems more like those catch-up kinda days.

Either way, what we are looking at is  THIS LAST WEEK REVIEW: 8/09/14-8/15/14
I did show improvement this week regarding my MCAT studies. But I am hoping to pass the 1000 mark each time. Next week goal is to pass 1000 mark for each day.

Digital Update 8/10/14

 

I must say, this was a very successful photoshoot. There were so much shots that I liked that it was difficult to narrow down to the top 20!!! let alone just narrowing down to the top 5. So, for the top 5, I went more with choosing different poses to create more of a variety. Overall, I really like this photoshoot. I haven't felt this good in awhile. But despite how nice the pictures came up, I am have been eating very unhealthy lately. I need to get back to eating greens.

MCAT: S1: Progress Update #1

So, I am adapting this method from my losing weights day. This allow me to track my daily progress and compared it to other days.

HOW IT WORK:

I used the myfitnesspal apps. My daily calories log is 1200 calories each day.
I rank my daily studying task in the scale from 1-120%.  On a perfect day, I will complete 100% of my assignment for that day. On a extremely rare day, I complete 120%. On other days... it varies.

But anyway, I need to get it right this time. So I'm trying to get myself back together.
Each day, I will log in my "percentage" in form of "calories". Thus, 20% workload = 200 calories.
So, if I did 100% of my daily workload = 1000 calories. My goal each week is to raised my avg. This is how the game work.

My Second Week Progress:

My Overall Progress:

MCAT: S1: Come Back

I found another duck pictures! :) And of course, it is perfect for today's topic.

Getting back into shape.
I been through summer school. I finished senior year. I graudated. Now, onto the MCAT. For REALL THIS TIME!

Try everything. 

Yesterday, I got into a argument with my mother. She came back from vacation and she basically started picking on me about my life. She said I was slacking in my MCAT studies. I got frustrated and screamed back at her. Before I know it, the whole house was awake and my dad also became involved. I told my mom to lay off me.

 I didn't want her to tell me that I am lazy and that I haven't picked up an MCAT books in weeks. I didn't want her to see that I couldn't study. I can't. I didn't want to. I am exhausted, I am tired, and I am burned out. Utterly burned out and dissapointed with the direction that i am walking right now. Don't get me wrong, it's not the destination that I am talking about. What I mean is that, things didn't go as planned for me this year. And it hit me hard. I'm have been trying to get up in the past month. But, I'm still stuck. 

I have been off track with my studies. I haven't picked up my MCAT books. I been not good. And if I want a shot at medical school, this MCAT is a hurdle I need to conquore. 

I need developed a way to organized my studies. I can't go aimlessly doing things anymore. I been strong studying for the MCAT in the past. I need to pick up steam again. Life doesn't always go as planned. It make me sad and feel hopeless like I am a failure. But, I can't just stop. My mom is such a strong women. She overcame so much hurdles in her life. I hope I can also be as strong as her. 

MCAT PLAN: 

1. Daily Planner:

--> I am going to use this to plan my schedule to see if I am on track with my daily planned. 

I am have going to have a "tentative" plan for my goals. Everyday, I will check on it to see if I am on track. It is to measure my daily task.

2. Myfitnesspal:
--> Trying to lose weight has taught me an important life lesson. If I want something to be done, I can't just neglect it. I need to address it. It need to be on my mind constantly or at least in the back of my head. I need something like myfitnesspal to help me study for my MCAT. 

Thus, I am going try to adapt my measuring system to myfitnesspal. (It's weird, but I'm trying to be innovative.. or at least something new) This is will allow me to compare the productivity of each day in a week & month span. 

3. Weekly Planner: 

--> This is to keep my schedule in check. Planned out lesson planned. 

I'm not exactly sure if all of this is going to work out. But I need to at least something or try everyone to see if something work out. I'm gotta do something. I want to be strong. I want to overcome.