So, today I went to listen to some Nike motivational youtube video. And all I can say is wow, they really give me some beating. I guess I can sit and tell you how tired I am. But honestly, I have gotten used to it, so let talk about something else tonight.
I was sitting today and thinking about my physic tutor. He a bit older than me and kinda cute. But, let try not to get romantic here. I'm in no mood to think about love or relationship. I have a test to take.
Anyway, I was thinking how he was able to achieve such a high score on his test and got accepted to so many great school. I ponder that for awhile, and I realized that people like him must have worked really hard. I respect that.
And I think of the stage that I am in right now, it is quite rough to be honest. But then again, I wouldn't want to do anything else. The question that has been poppping up in my head these days was "why medicine? Why do I want to be a doctor so much? the struggle to get there is crazy, and the work load is insane,!! Should I have gone into pharmacy or dentsitry? Oh goodness I'm tired. I'm not even sure I'm good enough? What happen if this all go astray? " So, these kind of thought were roaming in my head. But then earlier this week, I was sitting in class and biology teacher was going over the immune system. She was describing how all our immune cells in our body work together to help keep us healthy. We talk about the specific function and task of these cells, and the war they fought against different bacterial infect and virus outbreak. And there was a rining in my head "IS THIS AMAZING OR WHAT? THIS IS SO COOL" And honestly, I know this is crazy, but I do love the thing that I am studying.
Its a lot of work, but I truly enough spending my time to understand these tiny details and aspect. I think its amazing what our body do and learning about each aspect of them to one day fix it, is even more mouthwatering. Also, earlier today, I was a bit stressed and I thought to myself "I have to stop stressing, or I'm going to drive my adrenal cortex insane with releasing all these crazy coritsol." And it struck me how amazing it was. hahaha, I doubt any of my other friends in other field could have went through that thought processes. Its a little geeky thing I do to myself, but I glad i knew.
But, then again, tomorrow is another uphill battle. I will probably go down into a dump again and you'll see me blogging and complaining about my life. I will probably be sad and feel incompetent and probably cry some more. But tonight, I do really appreciate the thing I am learning eventhough it hurts me a lot and put me through such a worldwind. I just hope I know and learn enough in time for this test.
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