For the last few days, I have been having the case of "what if". What if my MCAT score dont' pull thorugh? what happen if the i dont' make it through this cycle of application? what happen if I can't apply? What happen the MCAT 2015 is completely different from what I expected? What happen if that one professor won't write my letter of rec? What happen if I don't get a good letter? What happen if I some how die before being able to apply to medical school? What happen if I never make it in? What if ....
And so, these question haunts me and I try to push it away, but they always pop back up.
The risk is there. The MCAT. The Letter of Rec.The Application. The possible failures.. it all scares the hell out of me. And I am terrified. I don't want to think of what will happen if that is the case. I will probably cry a lot. I will first cry..
But, this isn't the time to think of such what ifs question...
Then the next question to ask would be, "What if I didn't apply? What would I do? What would bring me joy? What would challenge me and make me enjoy my life? How would I feel if I gave up before I've given it my all?" It's one thing to give it your all, try REALLY hard and then get to a point where you realize it's not the right fit and move on.... it's another to give up before you've even taken the steps. Keep going. Make sure you travel to the end of your path before you turn back. ((hugs))
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