This week has been rough. Vietnamese New Year is 3 days, and started on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. In this time, I was busy studying for a final.
I don't know but this is really indeed a rough week for me. There was so much to do, and so much I needed to catch up on my stats finals. I finished today, but I am unsure where I currently stand. There is just so much in my life right now that I really don't have a hand on.
(my post exam, midnight, snack, after I slept for 4 hours during the hours I was suppose to be studying)
Last Last week has been a mess, this last week is a mess, and I am so scared for this coming week. So far, I didn't start off so hot. I study till very late last night, only to wake up late this morning for my final exam. Luckily, my school admin allowed me to complete my test in another location so I could stay focus. Things could have been very bad this morning. I could have completely overslept and missed everything, but I didn't. I was able to took my exam, and so far, in term of the grade scale, I did alright (but i'm still crossing my fingers that everything turns out alright). Either way, life could have been worse today, but it didn't.
On another note, I am in love. Yes, I have feeling for one of my classmate, and its about time I admit it to you and to the world. I can't hide it no longer, and I can't say it doesn't exist because it is constantly on my mind. I have so much to do and so much to study for, but the thought of this girl keep coming into my head. I could try to resist and run away from it but based on past experience, following that route would do me no good. So the only thing I could do is accept it, and take it one day at a time. I want to learn more about this girl and who she is. I don't want to rush into things because, well, there is medical school and it's crazy workload. I hope things would progress slowly, but surely. I don't know, everything could go in flame so easily, and I could see a million ways how this love of mine could go wrong. But despite it all, I still feel for her, and I hope I don't have to carry a broken heart and cry over her. I don't know. Its still very new, very little, very small. But she is such a great person, I want to get to know her more. Let's just see how this will go.
With that, did I mentioned I have a killer workload this week? I don't know, why life has to be soo hard these days. I want to succeed. I want to prosper. I want to be better.
I hope this year will make me better. I hope I will find guidance this year. I hope I will always be surrounded by the people who loved me. I hope I will be better than I was before. I hope this year will prepare me for boards. I pray for guidance.
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