Wk2: Progression

"You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should."

I'm scared. I took a really hard Repro test this Friday, and the score hasn't been released yet. Right now, I'm on double duty. On one side, I'm responsible for Boards stuff and on the other hand, I'm responsible for school materials.

The last exam was drastically difficult. There were questions that I was wondering where did they get it from? In some way, I felt like I really did study for the exam the same way that I would be studying for all other exams. I do not think boards got in the way of my exam studying schedule. But the score has yet to be released, so I can't make the call on yet. I hope it is okay, I hope I will be able to balance, and I hope I will not burnout, and I hope I be able to complete all the task I want to complete before boards.

With school stuff aside, I want to talk about this amazing weekend. I was burning out so hard last week, but this week, I went hiking with my group of buddies. It was truly something. I love it so much. We saw cactus, Joshua tree, eat good lunch in the freezing cold, hike up an old path that I traveled when I was a high school student. Things are truly different now. Back then, I was just a junior in high school and we were backpacking up this highly elevated mountain with our sleeping pads and tents. I was out of shape and wasn't really fit for the climb and I also fell off in one of the clift. Life was very different for me back then. Now, I'm doing a day hike with 2 other fellow buddies. The day was cool and the sky were cloudy. It was perfect for a good climb.

And this time, the climb was not that difficult. I was picking up pace fast and I felt like I had a lot of energy. In some way, I was racing to the top and it was perfect. We made it half way and part of me wanted to continue. However, we were poorly equipped. We didn't have proper shoes, proper clothing, and food & water. We fear the sun was setting soon and we didn't want to hike back down the stop in the cold. We saw the snow and knew how slippy the step could be if it got dark. So, by around 3:30 Pm, we decided to head down. A part of me was sad that we didn't complete the climb, but apart was happy that I was to make the climb. The view was incredible and the air was fresh. I felt like I could finally breathe again after so many days studying.

We made 2 additional stop before heading home; one of which was to watch the sunset and the other was to see the stars.

There are a lot of thoughts I wanted to write about. But maybe, not this time. Its 40 minute past my curfew. But I there is one last thing I would like to say: While looking at the stars, I felt complete. I felt small but big at the same time. It was as if I belong and I am blessed beyond measured.