Healthy Living: Spring Again

Spring Again.
It's finally here everyone. Spring is upon us.

I am not sure if you still remember, but this time last year, I was going through some pretty tough time. It is definitely something I will never forget. It was hard on my personal life and also on academic grades. Spring is here again.

Even though it's spring. It feels different from last year. The people are different, the environment are different, the whole setting itself is different.

What I mean is that.. this quarter, my world is shifting underneath my feet.This quarter is really scaring me. I am more involved in the hosptial now. I do research in the hospital and I also volunteer there. I spent 2 day a week a the hospital. On top of all of that, I also have school work.

This was my first week of school. I am extremely exhausted. My work in the hospital have brought me uncontrollable stress. I cried my first 2 days of school. I couldn't handle it. I'm sorry, I get emotion sometime. It's just.. this new environment is so new for me..

I feel like have completely changed my living style. I go to bed at 11:30 PM every night now. I get up at 5 AM every morning. I go to the hospital before the sun even rise. My research deals a lot with surgery cases. I work in the Anathesiolgy department. It's SOO STRESSFULL!! :((

It makes me feel terrible at time. By the time I finished my 6 hours shift, I feel exhausted. Then I have to drive 1 hour back to school. Then, I HAVE CLASS!! :((

Well, my new schedule really kick my ass. I been drinking 2 cup of coffee per day. It's crazy. I feel so tired at the end of the day.

This quarter is really challenging. I need to keep up with my school load, and also manage to adjust to working under a very stressful environment at the hosptial. This is my first week of school and I'm completely wiped dead. I dont' know how I'll survive when my midterms comes around.

I don't mean to be a whining complaining girl on the internet. It's just this week has been tough for me. But I will have to learn to adjust.

I think I read this quote from Gertie's page:

"You never know how strong you really are until you have no other choice but to be strong."

I didn't really think much of the quote until I lived through this week. It is so true. But sometime, I wish I hadn't have to go through this ordeal. I don't want to be strong. Being strong is soo hard..

But. Despite me being completely exhausted and dead, this hosptial experience is really life changing me. It shook my world. I can't describe it yet. There is this feeling in me.. it's something indescribable. What is this feeling? ...