Books: The Maze Runner

I originally did not want to bring myself to write this. However, I felt I had so much emotions in myself that I needed to let it out.

Recently, in the last few weeks, I read THE MAZE RUNNER SERIES. It was amazing and crazy at the same time. I truelly fell in love with the books and its characters. It was a good read.

I felt everything. I felt the Adrenalin. I felt the pain and sorrow of the characters. I felt the hardship and the starvation the character face. And for the first time in a very long time, I felt love.

I fell in love with one of the main girl. I guess, I didn't fall in love with her. But I kinda live vivaciously through the main character. I felt so much for Teresa. She was perfect for Thomas. It was like they were meant to be together and my heart goes out to her. I wanted them to be together so much. They been together from the very beginning and they were true friends. I think Teresa really love Thomas too.

But it hurt me so much, because it didn't turn out for them. In the end book. Teresa had to betrayed Thomas because she loved him. She love him and inorder to save his life, she needed to make him feel Betrayed. And she succeeded with her acting, but at the same time, she lost him and his trust.

Thomas could no longer loved her anymore because she broke his trust, but for good reason. But Thomas could never forgive her. It hurts me so much, and that in the end of the series. She was killed and written off. It felt heartless how the authored did that to Teresa.

I felt the pain because Teresa was a character that actually grow and matured through the series. You can feel her pain and her harship. You see how she suffered and how she goes through all this to survive and save the man she loved. But that stupid Thomas.

And for the main author to simply replaced her for a prettier girl. In the book there was a love triangle, you can tell that it was between Teresa, Thomas, and Brenda. But damn it, Thomas ended up with Brenda. I like Brenda. She is a good girl. But felt so much hurt for Teresa. It was Teresa who has growned and mature. It was Teresa who went through hell and came back. It was Teresa who save Thomas. It was Teresa who lead the character. It was Teresa who made the sacrefice. But Thomas did not understand and I doubt the author really understand.

In a way, I felt Teresa death was unjustified and unnecessary. She should have lived. I don't think Thomas deserved her.

But other than that, the whole series was amazing. I loved the 3 books. I could not put down the 2nd and 3rd book. I especially love when Newt die. I know it sounds heartless, but his death really highlights one of the best climax of the book. Since Newt was such a loveable character, and his death because of the infection disease really bring outs the brutality of the disease/virus that was occuring the books.

Because throughout the book, we know there was a disease that plague the human race and millions people die. However, we couldn't really feel the destruction until the person we love and care actually die because of it. His death wasn't even a calm and peaceful end. But it was so climatic that the Thomas and Newt was wrestling. And then we saw what mercy was. Mercy was to kill Newt so he didn't have to go through the transition and become an infected zombie. His death marks to me and gave me a personal burn of how much and hurt it was. And there, I could feel the virus/plague humanity. I finally understand the necessity of the cure. I understand why WICKED search to every extent to save humanity. I finally understand. And Newt made it memorable.

Newt death further the plot and made the character felt the pain and the sorrow. Teresa death was unjustified and unnecessary. I really felt sorry for Teresa and all the things she been through. My heart goes out to her.

Overall:

This book made me feel again. For all this time, my heart could not understand what it was like to love someone or to feel for someone. To lose someone like Teresa. I really care for her and I really wanted Teresa to be with Thomas. I really felt that lost. I haven't really feel that way in a very long time. I have never felt that way since the last time I said goodbye to the girl who I had  a crush in college. It was nearly 2 years ago. I haven't felt anything in my heart since about love and lost. I could not understand what it was like to love someone and lose someone who you romantically feel for. This open up my heart and I felt the lost. The pain. And in a way, it made me more human. It brought a back a since of emotions that I had fall out of touch for awhile. It was a sense of romantic love. It was to think and hold onto a girl who you truely feel for. It felt so much for Teresa and Thoma's relationship.

I think this book was like a wake-up call. Or something to bring me out of the things I have been facing lately with the whole application process. I was so focused on my career that I felt out touch with love and emotions for someone else. Boy, did it bring something back. And for that, I feel again. For that, I love again. For that, I hurt again. For that, I have this mix emotions in my heart. For that, I am thankful.

Finally, I could understand what my friends who are in love feel like. How they feel about their significant others. How they felt in their love & troubles. It nice. I guess singlehood has made me out of touch with romantic love. But this book really brought something backs. For that, I am thankful.