I found myself crying lately a lot regarding reflecting on my life. I think tears comes so often for so many things. I think this is because of the oncoming stress of Decembers, the upcoming interview, the poster, the presentation, the questions to study for the, the interview process, all of this coming toward me and it gets overwhelming.
I find the emotional aspect of being on an emotional roller coaster. There are so much I want to say about the emotions I feel, but I don't think I want to express everything on here for now. But I do want to say a few things about what I am planning to do and the reflecting that came to be at the end of the day.
In the end, I have been complaining about all of these feelings and how it is so hard to bear and living it. But to others, this is life. I guess, I really do have to learn to live in insecurities, learn to live with doubts, learnt to rest with fear, learn to sleep with not knowing what tomorrow will bring. I need to stop crying for myself and for my problem. This application process is hard, but it is not the worst thing in the world. I can get through this. I can pull through. It is because I know I'm a fighter. I know. So, here, where all the rhymes and poetry of the past comes to play. I will not drewl anymore and cry about random things. I learned to live with the conditions that is given to me. I learned to survive.
Oh, and here for an old pal.
I used to have an old college friend where we were lab partners. I was very fond of her because we worked well in lab together. I am happy to have known her. I don't think I could ever forget this friend because she made a lot impact in my life. I am happier knowing that I have this good pal for a short segment of my life. I am grateful to have met her. Physic labs would not be so awesome without her.
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