Showing posts with label Improvements. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Improvements. Show all posts

Thursday, February 8, 2018

WK4: Everything Alright




Initially, I was going to write on this Monday night. But things came up, I got tired and so I decided not to write. And Tuesday came, and I was surrounded with work, trying to catch on Board Studying that I missed.

And finally, Wednesday came. Its late: 12:45. I have class at 8AM tomorrow and I need to be awake for the session. What should I tell you tonight? What should report?

This week is called "Skull Week" at my school. hehe
We learn technique to treat the brain and the movement of the brain.

This week feels like a catch-up week. I finally came out of a flu. I'm still coughing but my strength is slowly coming back. I can feel a part of me coming back. I like it when I was sick. My world shrink and all I care about was my health and my grade. I didn't think about anything or anybody. Every little thing I did was an achievement. I was proud of myself for completing a lecture. I was proud of myself for getting myself out of bed in the morning. I was proud just to carry on. I took myself to the doctor, paid urgent care, drank my medicine and got myself in bed on time. I felt like a good kid, taking care of my health and nothing else.

As my health came back, my expectation for myself heighten. I feel restless if I didn't board study. I feel like there is a bunch of things I should be doing, or must be doing. I feel like I need to do something. Thoughts came back into my head. I can start feeling again and my emotions. "Issue pertaining to the heart"

But luckily, tonight, everything is under control. I have worked out a manageable schedule to wrapped up my board schedule. I made peace with the face that I'll hit 400 over due in my Questionbank. But this would allow me time to study, to find peace, and hopefully to study for class.

Goodnight, world. Tonight, everything is alright. I pray for guidance.

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Wk3: Sick



I'm sick.

Let me HPI myself:

22 f pt with sore throat, cough, fatigue, fever that has been constant for the last 5 days. Sick contacts are her classmates were sick a week back; Progression -warm water make it better; and loud noise make it worse. She also complaint of a headache which is 2/10 with no radiation; she said this flu is constant and progressively worse; associated sx admit fever, fatigue, cough, phelm is yellow-greenish, sore throat; denies tatycardia, night sweats

Lol, I guess that is what my sx looks like. This past week I went to see Aladin, and then stayed in my room for the rest of the week to make up for everything since I am sick. I'm using Cramfigher to study for board but I can barely keep up now since my flu is getting worse. I'm going to see the doctor tomorrow. If anything, I hope I get better and be able to keep up with my classes.

Friday, January 23, 2015

Healthy Living: The Legend of Korra



I have taken a week off. During this time, I didn't think much about school or future or MCAT. The only thing I really did was catch up on my shows. I bringed watch the Legend of Korra for almost all 4 season in 2 day. It was an amazing series.

I really love the series for some reason and especially fond with Korra. I used to watch the show 2 years ago when I was going through my sexuality crises. I liked her a lot back then because our personality really matched. She acted in the way I can completely relate. In a way, I felt I was very much similar to her.


Now, I have rewatched all of season 1, 3, and 4. I realized that Korra has went through a lot during my absence from the series. While I was fighting my battles in college, she was also fighting her own wars through the series 2,3,and 4. I'm really glad I came back to watch the season again.

She grew so much and she went through so much. She was real to me. She faces fears, doubt, pain, and suffering. Through it all, these obstacles taught her more about life and how to live life. There was a time she ran away from herself because she couldn't face her past and her failures. She encounter fears that has paralyzed her in her own tract.  Korra felt and experience the terror of fear and the pain of suffering. Korra had it rough.



But Korra eventually got back on her feet. She didn't do it alone. She has a lot of help from her friends, mentors, and family. There were people cheering her on and taking care of her during time when she lost herself. Through her difficulties, she learns her lessons. She gain empathy through her own suffering and connected better with people around her. Through her inner struggle, she found herself. Korra is braved and blessed at the same time.

The Legend of Korra helps me reflect on my path. And in a way, I truely connect with Korra. I admires her and want to be somewhat like her. Of course I do not have super power nor am I required to save the world. But I share her responsibility that there are things that I can contribute to this life with my own power. Seeing Korra face her fears and dealt with her failure, she help me realized that also I need to address my own problem.


I hope I can be as strong as Korra on my own adventures. I need to get back on my feet.


Sunday, February 3, 2013

Healthy living: Where to begin?

I don't know where too begin. Really.

It seem that I have been missing a lot of from this world of blogging, but I miss you guys!
I guess, I can divide this into compartment and share you with my experience.

Firstly, school.
Since the start of the quarter, life has been a big RUSH!! I had 3 midterms on the 3rd week of the quarter so I had to started studying the for them. Also, the week before midterms, I had to go to Carmel conference to present my research project. Therefore, traveling for it was a pain. It was fun expierence, but I was so frantic with my up coming midterm that I did not find time to enjoy the nice environment of Carmel.

 (My Hotel Room view of the beach at Carmel)

(Flying toward Carmel)

Then the midterms came. One after another. It was overwhelming studying for them, and I did nothing but study for them. My life was extremely inactive. If I can sum it up to you, I was basically eating and studying. Sleep was optional and sometime a luxury I could not even afford. It was extremely tough and stressful in that time, but I remain strong. I didn't get sick and I can't be more thankful! It was so lucky I was not sick.


(basically, this is how dead I look for most of the week. I know...)

Basically, I was on a really bad eating style and my caffeine consumption is horrendous. Either way, I don't know what more to say than that. I basically study by butt off. But during this trip, I also met some great and interesting people. Either way, I am so glad I got out of this week alive. But I'm sure there are more hectic week to come.

So, the reason for my absent of blogging is that during the past 3 consecutive week, I was struggling to make sure that everything fall into places. I tried to get ready for my midterm and for the trip to Carmel. I became a dead zombie, but a happy and alive one. :)

Second, Friends:
I have talked with many of my old high school friends lately. We haven't talked for years. And now, suddenly, we are calling each other and starting conversation. Its amazing how much college has changed people. But one thing we still have in common and that is we all still have very unsucessful love life. hahaha

But it seems like many of my friends have been through a lot in college. Before, they were young and in this carefree environment of high school. But college have shifted their world and made into a new person. I can't speak if they did change for the better or not, but I know that they aren't the little boys and girls I use to know back then. I just hope they are doing well and will continue to prosper over any obstacles.

 (Graduation 2010)

But just looking at them, I know one thing for sure. I am not different from them. I have changed also and I hope I have become a better person. I am young and very naive. I still have a lot to learn, but I hope whatever I do in the future, I will be true to myself and do some good to this world before I leave. This is what I use to look like during senior year of high school. Are you ready!?!


(This is the way i dress and look like during senior year. 2010)

But now, enough of looking back. It's time for me to face the present to show you about what is going on in my life now. As I continue to struggle and raise my grades, I am also embarking on a new journey. I AM OFFICALLY STUDYING FOR THE MCAT! I have dreamt about this since my senior year of high school and its finally becoming a reality. I am studying for the MCAT. This is a very big deal to me because I have been dreaming for this days for years. I'm becoming a big girl.


(This is my MCAT Bundle)

Just looking at this, things just have seen to gotten real. I can't believe I'm studying for the MCAT. I still can't believe it. I'm studying for the MCAT. Wow, I just can't believe it.

This wraps it up. I'm studying for the MCAT. I hope to take my test at the end of this year.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

12/12/12


It's a little late, but I just want to emphasize something.
My birthday was on 12.12.12 this year! And I turned 21! :)
That's a lot of "1 & 2" haha x)

I wasn't able to post or write anything because I had to study for finals. I really did the best I can. I made tons and tons of mistakes this quarter, and I think I will take these lesson to heart for next quarter. But I really did learn my lesson this time!

I studied my best, and I did my best. I leave the rest to the divined.
And I am just thankful that I have lived 21 years of my life. I know people ususally use this day to go drinking, but I think I'm going to skip on that one.

I just am really glad I lived this far. I heard the news today in Conneticute, 20 childen and 6 adults were shot. It really a shocking news. My prayers goes out to their family tonight. It must be terrible. Imagine what their parents are thinking tonight? They tuck their kids into bed yesterday  night and drop them at school the next day. Who would to think that it would be the last time they would see their kids?

Who would have think?
I learned something very important this quarter. Sometime, life will hit you with things you never expect and it will break you down. Crumble your dream, destroy your love, do things that devaste you. And sometime, bad things happen to good people. There is no avoiding such circumstance or situation. It is simply fate. Your fate. My fate. Our fate.

But the important thing is that... You choose how you meet fate. You may not be able to change it, but you sure have the control over how you face it. For some, it's the end. (like those kids today, and their family).

It's sad when I analyze such things in the middle of the night. But it's important.
Now, look at my birthday. It's December 12, 2012. I didn't pick the day or the time I was born, it was given to me. And there is nothing I can do to change it. But what I can do is have control how I react to it. And how I meet up.

It might seem like we're just so little, and being unable to control the outcome of our life. But, our reaction and perspective can play a lot. Don't underestimate it. But to be honest, what do i Know? I'm just a 21 years old girl.

Btw, my finals are over. I can finally post and be active again!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Healthy Living: Why Medicine?



Why Medicine?

Medicine is a career that holds no distinction and boundaries. Where a patient regardless of his history or background will not be put at judge when he is in the operating room. And I admired this in physicians and in the field of medicine. Where, in medicine, the goal that one all work toward is guaranteeing the safety and well-being of another human being.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Improvement: The Art of War

Notes from Art of WAR ... 
                                                                 

"All men can see these tactics whereby I conquer, but what none can see is the strategy out of which victory is evolved."

Planning: 

"All warefare is based on deception"

Strategy:

"Knowing the enemy enables you to take the offensive. Knowing yourself enables you to stand on the defensive. Attack is the secret of defense; defense is the planning of an attack. "

"If you know the enemy and how yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer defeat If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle."

"3 ways in which a ruler can bring misfortune upon his army: 
1. By commanding the army to advance or to retreat, being ignorant of the fact that its cannot obey. This is called hobbling the army.
--> "A kingdom should not be governed from without, and army should not be directed from within." The general should not be in the thick of his own troops, but a little distance apart. Otherwise, he will be liable to misjudge the position, and give wrong orders."

2. By attempting to govern a army in the same way as he administers a kingdom, being ignorant of the condition which obtain in an army. This cause restlessness in the soldier's mind.
--> " Humanity and justice are the principles on which to govern a state, but not an army; opportunism and flexibility, on the other hand, are military rather than civil virtues."

3. By employing the officiers of his army without discrimination
" Use the right man in the right place."
--> " The skill employer of men will employ the wise man, the brave man, the covetous man, and the stupid man. For the wise man delights in establishing his merit, the brave man likes to show his courage in action, the covetous man is quick at seizing advantages, and the stupid man has no fear of death."

"5 essential for victory: 
1. He will win who knows when to fight and when not to fight.
2. He will win who knows how to handle both superior and inferior forces: (superior means abudunant force, make easy ground; with an inferior one, make for difficult ground.
3. He will win whose army is animated by the same spirit throughout all its ranks
4. He will win who, prepared himself wait to take the enemy unprepared.
5. He will win who has military capacity and is not interfered by the sorvergein:

Tactical Disposition:

"The good fighters of old first put themselves beyond the possibility of defeat, and then waited for an opportunity of defeating the enemy. "

"To secure ourselves against defeat lies in our own hands, but the opportunity of defeating the enemy is provided by the enemy himself. Thus the good fighter is able o secure hismelf defeat, but cannot make certain of defeating the enemy."

"Hence the saying: One may know how to conquer without being able to do it."

"The general who is skilled dfenses hids in the most secret recesses of the earth, he who i skilled in atack flashes forth from the topmost heights of the heaven. Thus on the one hand we have ability to protect ourselves; on the other, a victory that is complete."
-> the "secret recesses" as the hills, rivers, the other natural freature which will afford shelter or protection to the attacked. The "topmost heights of heaven" as the phases of weather which may be turned to account by attacking party.

"What the ancients called a clever fighter is one who not only wins, but excel in winning with ease"
--> "He who only sees the obvious, wins his battles with difficulty; he who looks below the surface of things, wins with ease."

"He wins his battles by making no mistakes. Making no mistakes is what establishes the certainty of victory, for it means conquering an enemy that is already defeated. Hence the skilful fighter puts himself into a position which makes defreat impossible, and does not miss the moment for defeating the enemy."

"Thus it is that in war the victorious strategist only seeks battle after the victory has been won, whereas he who is destined to defeat first fights and afterwards looks for victory."
-->"In warefare, first lay plans which will ensure victory, and then lead your army to battle; if you will not begin with stratagem but rely on strength alone, victory will no longer be assured."

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Ex: Strategy: Don't expect to wake up on time when sleeping late.
Ex: Taticts: Sleep early
Ex: Plan: (applying tactics) Go to bed at 12:00 AM! No later!
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Energy: 

"The control of a large force is the same principle as the control of a few men: it is merely a question of dividing up their numbers."
--> "Fighting with a large army under your command is nowise different from fighting with a smll one: it is merely a question of instituting signs and signals."

"To ensure that your whole host may withstand the brunt of the enemy's attack and remain unshaken-this is effected by manoeuvres direct and indirect."
-->"In presence of the enemy, your troops should be arrayed in normal fashion, but in order to seure victory abnormal manoeuvers must be employed. "

"In all fighting, the direct method may be used for joining battle, but indirect methods will be needed in order to secure victory. These who are so inextricably interwoven in all military operation."

"In battle, there are not more than two methods of attacks--the direct and the indirect; yet these two in combination give rise to an endless series of manoeuvres"
--> "the direct and indirect lead on to each other in turn. It is like moving in a circle- you never come to an end. Who can exhaust the possibilities of their combination?"

"The quality of decision is like the well-timed swoop of a falcon which enables it to strike and destroy its victim."

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Improvements: Strategy

                                                      A picture above is a "latticework"

An excerpt from:

Strategy is not a plan

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Strategy definition:
Victory is achieved in the way of conflict by ascertaining the rhythm of each opponent, by attacking with a rhythm not anticipated by the opponent, and by the use of knowledge of the rhythm of the abstract. - Miyamoto Musashi, samurai strategist, 17th century Japan

Strategy isn’t beating the competition, it’s shaping and  serving the customer’s real needs. – Kenich Ohmae, Managing Director, McKinsey & Co, Tokyo Office

MY DEFINITION: "strategy: is a pattern to a course of action." 

Plan definition:
A plan is an intention about how to get from where we are now to where we want to be in the future.

Boyd’s views strategy as a tapestry of mental models–models produced through a constant cycle of destruction and creation and via the building of snowmobiles,
Strategy is a mental tapestry of changing intentions for harmonizing and focusing our efforts as a basis for realizing some aim or purpose in an unfolding and often unforeseen world of many bewildering events and many contending interests.
Charlie Munger, Vice-Chairman of Berkshire Hathaway and Warren Buffett’s partner, recognized the same need for strategy to consist of multiple mental models utilizing a latticework metaphor as opposed to Boyd’s tapestry.
You’ve got to have models in your head. And you’ve got to array your experience—both vicarious and direct—on this latticework of models. You may have noticed students who just try to remember and pound back what is remembered. Well, they fail in school and in life. You’ve got to hang experience on a latticework of models in your head.
What are the models? Well, the first rule is that you’ve got to have multiple models—because if you just have one or two that you’re using, the nature of human psychology is such that you’ll torture reality so that it fits your models, or at least you’ll think it does.
What this is all highlighting is the relationship between strategy and a plan. Plans of some kind or another will always be necessary, but they are a lower-order good than strategy. Strategy guides the plan, it shapes it to better match an ever-changing reality, it modifies it, discards it (a key part leaders seem to forget).  But, alas, they are not the same thing…not even close.

There are many kind of strategies, just as there are many kinds of patterns. 
 
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An excerpt from:

Strategy, The Art of Everything Else 

It's like the deer that you spot in the field behind your house when you're a kid. You want so badly to run right up to it, yet if you do so you'll quickly scare it away. So you begin walking, slowly, quietly...tangentially. You walk in circle that imperceptibly decreases in its diameter over time. You stalk, painstakingly aware of your own presence and all of the unintended consequences it brings to the situation, its foreignness. Your every move has the potential to shatter a fragile ecosystem. Of course, the deer inevitably runs, it always does. You step on a twig, the wind changes direction and the creature catches your scent, reality changes before you can lock the moment in time. But there is always a brief instant before the deer escapes that both of you freeze and lock eyes, the hair stands on both of your necks and you know that you've gotten closer than you were supposed to get...a little closer than the last time.

When devising strategy one is chasing after a constantly-changing reality. We live in a state of, as Boyd put it, perpetual novelty. The world around us provides us with an infinite amount of data or inputs that we must try to filter in some sort of intelligent manner. To do so we create mental models or paradigms through which we filter the world in an effort to provide a coherent narrative. "What's going on here?" is often an incredibly difficult question to answer when posed at a global or even national level. Like the deer in the field, the perfect answer to that question, or a completely perfect match to reality is impossible to pin down -- the second you try, reality changes, making some part of your strategy irrelevant. All one can hope for is to get a little closer than the last time.

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"In his book 'Naval Strategy: Compared and Contrasted with the Principles and Practice of Military Operations on Land,' published in 1911, Mahan compared naval officers to artists. He wrote that artists had to learn certain techniques, mediums and certain skills, but that wasn't what made their artwork great. In the end 'art, out of materials which it finds about, creates new forms in endless variety,' artists take those foundation basics and then mix and match them based on inspiration and experience to create a masterpiece. History helps us understand that frequently there are no right answers to military questions of strategy or leadership. There are only 'sound conclusions,' which are drawn from understanding basics and history."

Approaching strategy in an indirect fashion, as more of an art than science may make some uneasy, specifically those who find safe haven in the concreteness of checklists and formulas. Yet, the nature of strategy reflects the nature of the world. It is infinitely complex, it is always changing and it is filled with humans that often do irrational things. Literature (see Charles Hill) and psychology have as much of a place at the strategy table as military history...as do mathematics, physics, political science and technology. So, when asking, "what must one study to be a great strategist?" the answer seems to be, "everything else."

 

Healthy Living : Coming of Age


Well, despite everything that happened this summer. I realized that something in me has changed this summer or "renewed". It's my sense of responsibility and the task that I need to do for my future ahead. I never really thought of this, but a conversation with an old friend yesterday, have startle me at something.

I asked her what she like more: high school or College. And she said highschool. IT's odd. Because, usually, people say that they prefer college a lot more because of the excess freedom. But my friend actually put that college is harder because it requires more responsiblity and task.
Unlike me, who freeload off my parents for many things, she have to actaully work to helped her parents pay the house mortage, gas to drive, food on the table, clothes to wear, electricity bills, water bills, and etc. All this sound foreign to me because I never really thought about it. I never really did. Because I never lived like that before. My responsiblity from high school to college only changed by the fact that I need to drive myself to school. But everything else, is just the same.

Now, I realized that I do have a lot more responsibility. I'm not 15 anymore where the worst thing in the world is that i got into a fight with my best friend. Now, I have to really think about my future and the life I want to lead.

I know for career wise, I am very interested in medicine and I'm trying to head down that career. But I haven't been investing. I need to start being more financially accountable for all my spending and keep record of my monthly budgets. I can't freeload off my parents forever. I need to get my academic grades together, study for MCAT, and also get my hospital volunteers hours in, research project published and presented, as well as getting letters for my MCAT school.

I also want some mentors. People who I looked up too, and people who I can come in talk to. I want to get to know more professors at school and really be more involved in clubs. I need to start holding office positions in club as well developing better study strategies skills. Oh, AND I NEED TO WATCH MY WEIGHT. GOSH -___- I kinda mess up in that department for awhile now. Let's hope I get my ducks all align.

I hope I can make this work. It's seeem like a laundry list from here and I'm nto quite sure how I'm going to get all of this done.


I need to start understanding the basic of  "INVESTING"
FINANCIAL WALL:
1. http://www.schaefersblog.com/
2. http://www.schaefersblog.com/3-investment-principles-every-young-person-should-know-1-time-value-of-money/
3. http://www.schaefersblog.com/3-investment-principles-every-young-person-should-know-2-pay-yourself-first/
4. http://www.schaefersblog.com/3-investment-principles-every-young-person-should-know-3-dollar-cost-averaging/

5. STUDYINGHACK: http://calnewport.com/blog/

here are some TIPS:

1.  Stay true to who you are and your values as it will be a compass.
If anything, your early 20s has probably challenged your beliefs & values as you’ve either ventured off to college or into the real world. Stay true to your beliefs and values  because it is a part of who you are.