I don't' know what happen. I just went to take a shower, and I had this urge to sit down and write this poem. It was done in 10 minutes. Something just overtake me, and tada! :)
B: 1 bowl cereal + 1 bagal + 2 ban = 100 + 100 + 100
L: 1 salad = 400
D: 1 sandwhich + 2 bowl rice = 250 + 500
Total: 1500s? Ikd.. I feel like I ate a lot more. hm....
The Good: Idk.. I don't even trust my calories intake. I think I eat a lot. and.. i don't seem to remember what I eat. I need to blog about it daily and not wait till 2 or 3 days later and forget what I ate. SO, I don't really trust this 1500s.
The Bad: Gosh.. Hw. I wish I did more. And i didn't go to the gym today. Lol.. the guilt T_T
5/5/12
B: 1 bowl cereal + 2 ban + 1 slice of tofu meat = 100 + 100+ 100 (a lot of fruits..didn't count)
L: 1 sandwhich + 1 baquet = 250 + 330
D: Corn grill + 2 bowl soup +1 bowl junkies = 150 + 400 + 100
Gym: 40 min stairs + 15 min tredmill = 678 calories
Total: 1580
The Good: Damn it. I kinda went over my calories in take. But I been eating a lot. OH.. I even ate chocolate today. But i'm not gonna count that b/c that was for a little enjoyment. Nothing too serious. thank god I was able to control it. Yea, today was pretty normal. But I wished I got more hw done.. I'm so screwed.. midterm is coming!!
The Bad: Um. I went over calories intake. But that's it. I didn't do anything bad today. I ate chocolate. but It wasn't anything extremed. I guess the only bad thing is that I ate a lot of fruits after I came home from the gym.. and I'm still full right now. I guess that is bad. But I do agree that I EAT WAY TOO MUCH. I really need to go down.. but I'm always staying at this constant weight. Which bothers me. So, I need to stop myself.. from eating way to much and get food coma. I need to regulate my eating habit So i eat until i'm full, but don't over eat!
Lastly, I know it's only May. But Hey, here is a christmas song! :) Idk.. but I listen to it today while studying!
Train: Shake up the Happiness
The Good: Well, idk. I did my hw I guessed? I'm not sure anymore. I ate within my calories.
The Bad: I think I have a headache from all the music I listened to. I was doing ochem hw.. and that was like.. 4 hours. So, I just sat there for 4 hours straight listening to disney music and doing my ochem hw. So, now, I kinda have a headache. I had to listen to music b/c my head is still not thinking straight, and i find myself always daydreaming about my crush.. and it just make doing hw all more depressing. So, I listening to music was the only way to distract me from the thoughts.
So, after the 4 hours, I did finished my ochem hw! :) yay! I wouldn't been able to manage it without the nice disney music. My friend told me that depression (or the feeling of missing someone) comes in waves.. So, I guess you can say I have been experiencing several waves today. It's getting stronger and stronger now.. and idk why? But, still, I refused to drown, and I'm gonna keep on swimming.. haha :) the waves may be high, but I'm gonna be like a surfer and surf this one out! :D
Here is another Disney music video that I enjoyed today: Beauty & the beast-Celine Dion
It's been awhile since I actually sat down and write a Healthy Living post of myself.
It is because recently, I have found myself to be "out of the mood" and I feel overwhelm.
It's not that I'm more busy, but my emotion have been clouded... very clouded.
You see.. I like someone. But this person isn't a good person. So, I'm trying my best to get over it. And, it has been hard. I haven't contact my crush in about 1 1/2 week. I haven't even stalk their facebook either. I even deleted them off my facebook newsfeed so I don't get reminded of them every time i logged into facebook.
And, last week, I find it very hard to concentrated on school let alone take care of myself. I was eating chocolate almost like everyday.. and my I was depressed. I spent a lot of time missing that person and distracted. I didn't want to do anything anymore. I just want to sit and be sad.
Well, that was a week ago. Now, it's a little different. I'm not in that depression anymore. I am stronger! Starting last Friday, I realized I need to stop this!! I need to get gripe! I was gaining weight and my grades was terrible. I don't even study for my ochem quiz! Everything was just plained horrible. But, I realized that I need to stop myself. I am better than this. I don't want to live like this.
So, I picked up myself by the end of the week. I started to focus more on myself. I realized that, it's okay. I'm going to be okay. And I went back to 3fatchicks, but that blog was giving me a hard time. So, I used that opportunity to make a new blog!
And here I am! I started to focus on school and my weight. Things are better now. I do hw now, and I study for my classes. Everywhere I go, I still carry a heavy heart. But, I'm going to be okay!
I am very productive today and yesterday. I get my work done and I even focused on my healthy living style. I read other people blog to get motivated and I listen to disney music to keep me happy! :)
So, I'm not totally over my crush, and I still go through hard time. But like Winston Churchill once said "If your going through hell, then keep going!" So, here I am. I am going to get over this. I need to raise my grades up and reach my goal for my weight! =]
Here is something I enjoy listening too!! :) hahaha
THe Good: Wow, I'm good today! :) Hahaha, I eat within my calories limit and I even went to the gym. YAY! ^__^
The bad: Nothing much. But I wished I got more of my school work accomplished! But overall, it's not like I was being a bum the whole day x)
Healthy living Daily Record: 5/2/12
B: 2 bowl cereal + 1 bread + =220 + 250 (way too sleepy to care xD)
L: sandwhich + 2 slice of Cha =250 + 100
D: 1 salad = 550
Gym: none
Total: 1500s
The good: I got my head clear and I'm back in the game. time to study!! Midterm is coming! Oh, and I ace my ochem quiz this week! ^__^ hahaha, i'm soo happy! I failed the last 2 .. so I really wanted to do well on this one so I studied my butt off a yesterday and yay! :)
The bad: the weather is way too cold here so I can't go out of a walk without being feared of getting sick. And my heart is still heavy. I'll talk about it later.
Okay,
I'm doing this thing again. I have to keep record of what I eat. B/c when I don't keep track, I alway always always over eat... So, I need to start writing it down to keep myself accountable. Also, I do not count fruits. For calories, I think I will exempt fruits.
The Good:
...lol. Not good. Not good at all xD I guess my eating is a little bit overboard. I guess, I wasn't feeling well on Monday. And it was poor planning. I forgot my wallet at home that day, so it really messed up my eating schedule. When things don't go as plan. i find it hard... very very hard to adapt to new situation and circumstances. Thus, it lead to the over eating.
I want to dedicate this blog to my new blogs site! :)
I use to start at 3fatchicks, but now that account is very very glitchy. I can't even comment or start a new account there. THUS, I DECIDED TO START ONE HERE! :)
This will give me a chance to start over. And to be a better person.
I started a blog april last year. And, I have changed a lot since then! :) Haha, even my pictures would say so.
And, I hope that I try my best to be better now.
I realized that I made many mistakes in the past. But I have come a long way, and I hoped that with this new blog, I will try harder and work harder to be the girl that I always wanted to be.
I want to use this opportunity to start over. And be new again.
This time, I have a goal of becoming 115 lbs. I want to do this because there is something I want to for my mom that required me to be at this weight. I can't say what because I'm still very very shy. So, let's just say, 115 is the goal. And I hoped that within 1 year. I'll reach this goal.I think I'm 125 right now. But, because of my eating inconsistency, I am not quiet sure. So, I'll update it every sunday.
